Self Indulgent Reflective post

 So although I should be catching up on reading right now I thought I'd take a few minutes to reflect on how I'm managing this module. 

I started out on this module a lot more confident than I anticipated; the nerves I felt earlier this year in module one weren't the same entering the introductory zoom call as a module 2. I was really proud of the work I accomplished in module 1, it was definitely a rollercoaster of emotions getting there but if I can do that I have every confidence in myself going forward. Reading the module 2 hand book gave me confidence as it seemed like there was a more straight forward path to follow. 

Then one day an inquiry idea sprung to mind after a rehearsal and I thought, 'This is it! For the 5 years it's taken me to muster up the courage to do this course I've been worrying what I would research into and all of a sudden, something I'm passionate about has come to me!'

As I started to research it however, that confidence started to dwindle as I was struggling to find the sources that suited my topic; paired with the extortionate amount I was spending on slow wifi or even when we were in port my signal was super slow- thing's got a bit emotional (and by a bit, I mean if you've cried hysterically over this course yet, know you're not alone). I started to realise if I wanted to change my topic it was getting to the point where I better do it sooner rather than later. 

I fell asleep thinking about it, I woke up thinking about it and despite the fact I couldn't do my 2am voice notes to document my thoughts as I did in Module one because I have a room mate now- I came to my second inquiry idea. The handbook suggests that your inquiry topic could be something that supports you as you move forward in your career so that is what I want to focus on. 

At this point now I am a lot more confident with my decision as I think in the long run, the information I discover will be a lot more interesting than my previous idea. I am conscious of my time management as the next 3 weeks before I disembark from this contract are actually the busiest 3 weeks we've had since being on board; therefore I understand the work I need to put in if I want to keep the stress at bay!

I am trying to remind myself to have confidence in my abilities as I have proven to myself before what I can achieve, so there's no reason why I can't do it again.